it is green

it's been too long since i saw the water
or played or stayed in nature at all
and it's been too long since i tended to my roots
i've been letting my spirit fall
and i'm hungry for more
and i'm repelled and want less
and i'm sure that i don't want this

and my music is playing loudly
and my guitar is waiting for me
and my piano is getting dusty

where have i been? oh, where have i been?

it's been too long since i cleared out the weeds from around me
and my petals are losing color
but i'm green, green as can be. . . enough chlorophyll to last me
well into the next season
until i can find another reason
to blossom again

and i'm so hungry for something more
and so full of what i want less of

and i'm so ready to chop it all down
if it falls alone will anybody hear it?

it will be recorded, and you can buy the album
the last tree in the world
falling falling falling

the chords will paint a picture
and the melody will describe the setting
the lyrics won't even matter then
because you'll understand, you'll just understand

you'll listen to it in your ipod
as you walk or ride a train, or a plane
and you'll re-live the change
and feel how it all happened
over time

this became that
is became was
we became over
green became red

you become more
and more
who you are

we become more
and more
who we want to be

more of who we are

remember always:

IT IS GREEN

thinks nature

EVEN IN THE DARK

...even in the dark

i am.

and in waking up, i see.
i believe in beginnings.
with each moment new
i am satisfied being me, and you being you.

this tree stands alone
and though not frozen
still growing
my hands up in the air, but my heart is still knowing

to be not afraid
to live my days
alive in the sound of sweet suicide of emotion
they end their own time in a hurried mess

and left behind
is a trace, a trail
explaining in fragments
how the overwhelming began

in the beginning.
i am the pages in this book, not the words
my essence is the soft paper
providing the space for the story to unfold.

In order for a new tree to grow, it's seeds must be planted in a blank space of rich soil, with no other weeds or plants growing there. The space must be cleared and the soil must be upturned and made ready and fertile for a plant to grow. Then you take these tiny seeds and you plant them there. .. Anything that needs to grow, needs it's space to do so. So I feel this is what true and meaningful relationships are all about. The way to succeed and grow in a healthy relationship is to plant seeds of virtues like kindness, faith, strength, hope, in a space that is cleared and ready and made fertile for a real relationship to grow. In my life, I've had a relationship where the soil may have been cleared, but the tree that was trying to grow was stifled by weeds and other little creatures also starting to grow there. The weeds were not cleared properly and therefore the tree was under constant attack. Well, this caused the tree to hollow out and become a weak shell-- appearing strong and beautiful on the outside, but those with a keen eye knew better, and the tree just fell down. Now, I'm here beginning to take the first steps of clearing out the wreckage and preparing the soil again. I'm not moving away to a new space-- that's something I've learned does no real good. Running away is not the answer to all of life's mistakes. I've learned that my space, my soil right here, right now, is the perfect place for planting; always has and always will be. I don't need to look for fresher soil, because I have everything it takes right here in my life, to grow a beautiful strong tree.

Why do we worry and why do we cry?
Why do things happen the way they do-- why?
What is the purpose for hard times and strife
to Love and be loved is the purpose in life!
But no, times are harder, we break and we learn
We feel the suns warmth and we feel the sun burn
we fall and we drown and we gasp for clean air
and everything we trust in can be taken away.. There's
no reason to dwell in the consuming pain
but to rise above and stand true to our name
and be strong in the face of the challenge of living
keep on moving up, letting go, and forgiving
forgive life of it's hardships and take them as blessings
forgive yourself of mistakes and any shortcomings
you are always exactly where you're meant to be
the universe is unfolding all naturally
and a cycle is turning and the seasons will change
you embrace new thoughts, and old ones become strange
nothing can stop you as long as your here
remember to love and your heart will stay clear
no burden can keep you for you know how to stand
God is your rock keep that love and transcend

Mission Statement Poem

Tis time, my friend, to rearrange
sublime deep thoughts that once seemed strange
let them fall forward into light
see there's no use in still trying to fight

and all the secrets you don't know
will open up and start to flow
and understanding takes it's place
and silently you will awake

your mind can't be turned off for long
your heart can't stifle it's true love song
But spread it out and give it away
Don't hold on to yesterday

The past is gone and quiet now
Your future is in it's place; somehow
Ignore the rest and Just Be Here
let your mind relax and be clear

Gather your love and set it free
Don't get tied down to you, to me
Dance and sing like your spirit wants to
The world is waiting for your cue

Smile because you have this life
Ebrace the bliss, embrace the strife
Find your center, find your truth
Trust in God; maintain your youth

innocent from head to toe
now your faith can really grow
satisfied with simplicty
learn to love and learn to breathe

breathe in the sun, let out the pain
let it drain away like rain
believe, my friend, and don't lose sight
of Love; the only thing that's Right.