what you NEED.

no dreams
a sleep i didn't know i had
don't know how to fix something
that you can find the broken part of

a dark, deep, blue
we were in gainseville
i had to leave
before dark

wanted to surprise someone
snuck around, tip toe-ing

make me appear
make me stand clear
make me strong and true
make me a beautiful part of you

then they welcomed me, drawing me nearer
the light was shining in through the window
the trees were moving, perhaps there was a storm coming
and i missed it all so much

the grass
the fresh air
the relaxation
the incessant summer heat

these familiar faces i trust
these outer experiences i live for
what would it all mean
if i didn't have the most important thing to me
by my side
in my heart
of my world
in my life

and all for this love,
i've pushed away and pulled back again
What goes around comes around

and i need it now

A Little's Enough Lyrics

When all is said and done
Will we still feel pain inside?
Will the scars go away with night?
Try to smile for the morning light
It's like the best dream to have
Where every thing is not so bad
Every tear is so alone
Like God himself is coming home to say

I, I can do anything
If you want me here
And I can fix any thing
If you let me near
Where are those secrets now
That you're too scared to tell
I'd whisper them all aloud
So you can hear yourself

Green trees were the first sign
The deepest blue, the clearest sky
The silence came with the brightest eyes
And turned water into wine
The children ran to see
The parents stood in disbelief
And those who knew braced for the ride
The earth itself then came alive to say

I, I can do anything
If you want me here
And I can fix anything
If you let me near
Where are those secrets now
That you're too scared to tell
I whisper them all aloud
So you can hear yourself

I'm sorry I have to say it but you look like you're sad
Your smile is gone; I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in just a little more love
I promise you this, a little's enough

Being in Your House

Your house was trippy
You had a lot of gadgets
Lots of Light
Your house had many different rooms
Your house was not haunted
Your house had a cool bathroom
Cool fixtures on the wall
Cool light fixtures
The architecture was psychedelic
The rooms were normal
But contained magical looking things
Your house was at night
One room had yellow walls
Your house was a funhouse
I think
Maybe a slightly mad house
Your house had no mirrors
Only fun stuff to play with
Your house had a strange alarm clock
In the bathroom window
Your house was special
Your house was you
Your house
Your house
Your house
I was there
Thanks for having me over
I hope I was a nice guest!

:)

My Name

every experience makes me stronger
i hold on to the past no longer

i open my eyes so i can see
what is right in front of me

"feel the pain and feel remorse
but don't let these feelings guide your course"

i awake to what is true
a beautiful strength in me and you

found the secret once again
remembering where i have been

seeing the light that's right ahead
listening to all i've said

voices clear and steering now
knowing what is real somehow

here i stay when times are rough
when my mind is not enough

here inside my heart of hearts
where i reach a point to start

focusing on life and love
getting guidance from above

letting go of fear and doubt
letting hope echo throughout

getting farther than before
on the path toward God's door

Ocean Winter Spring in Flight
it all adds up to Love (so right!)

I don't want to waste any more time
Figuring out what's yours and mine

One thing we will always share
Connot be found anywhere
else
than
where
we are
right now

Right now
Let the love shine in!

Let the love light shine!

Let the love begin!

Love's Divine!

Please forgive me now I see
That I've been blind
Give me love
Love is what I need to help me know my name

Course of Nature Lyrics

You're my distanced destination of choice
I'd give anything just to hear your voice
I couldn't pass you on the street
Without saying a word
Most times I missed the voice
That goes unheard


What if I missed you
You got caught in the sun
What if I did something
Never to be undone


People everywhere how could I be sure
Is it you that I have been looking for
What would it take for me to be comfortable
With you, with me you're the chosen one


What if I missed you
You got caught in the sun
What if I did something
Never to be undone


You are there for me this I hope and pray
You will wait for me, I wont be to late


What if I missed you
You got caught in the sun
What if I did something
Never to be enough


Will you wait for me
Or will I be to late this time
You are there for me this I hope and pray

Are you writing from the heart?

Today I contemplated
Getting what I want
It got me quite frustrated

A yellow alien knocked
on my air conditioner
I said I wasn't ready to be whisked away

So then I joined the UN
To become an ambassador
To save the world

Following the tracks
Until I'm led
Into where I belong
The woods

So fact of the matter is
I moved up here with a dream
The dream has grown
The dream has widened
It is encompassing several countries now
Its breadth and width is compelling
I want to be inside this dream forever

So I will!

This beautiful rain keeps me cool
The woods keep me safe
I'm happy in my tree
Where I need to be

Someday though
I'll bring some leaves around your town
And you'll recognize the scent as something exquisite
and sweet

Ahhhhh, life and love will be as it is in my fantasy
b e a u t i f u l
a n d
r i c h

eventually, what?

Finally found time to write at home
This electronic diary...
Am I losing my sensitivity to the feeling of the awkword stance one must find in order to write, write, write
for hours on end
on the pages of a tiny notebook
with a tiny ink pen?

My finger used to be coarse
a bump from the pressure of instrument
that carried the feelings from heart and mind
to paper

now I stare at the light
in the late of the night

there's a mirror next to me
and blankness is what I see

Maybe I've grown numb
To what I felt when I was young

Is 22 so old?
It's not: so i've been told

But my mind is tired, the things i knew
are starting to grow blurry

and i've been so in love with something
there's no need to hurry

so i type it into a laptop
my fingers know the keys
and when i turn it off
it goes
black
and saved
into the ether

There are no boundries on this way
There is no price for me to pay
There is nothing I cannot say

It flows so quickly right out of me
and you see

i am lost
in the letters and shapes
my mind turns to one thing
the thing i can't shake
the habit i can't break
the thing i can't take
the thing i can't fake
the think i can't make

it stays

there
and i am here
and we stay so far away from what we think we want
and go closer to what we know we don't

alone in my feelings
lost in my mind
on the cycle of love
never ending story
eventually, what?

eventually, what?

New Heights

My, how spring has sprung.
The summer heat reminds me of home, and in the sweat I am waking up again.

Feeling like I've been down for too many decembers, I open my eyes to the sun
And my chlorophyll is dancing and laughing with joy, and running deeper and deeper shades

I cry green tears of movement as my roots refresh themselves in the cool water of the earth

Brown and blue and green

I come alive.

Branches stretching towards the sky, taking in every molecule of oxygen
taking it all in... the light, the air, the good stuff.

I am recycled
I am damp and cool
I am a forest of memories
... anchored in the ground

I am making books and wrapping paper,
Wrapping it all up in love, love, love ...

crazy love!

Never before has the sky been this blue
Never before has the sun been this yellow
Never before have the clouds been so silver
shining
sparkling
reflecting the energy
reflecting the incredible bright
light

I am here, now, remembering nothing, predicting nothing,
Growing up to new heights
Full of what matters most
the most important

ness

eileen-ness
love-ness
space-ness

can you imagine anything more?!

. . . . . . . . . . ..

June

June was a time for much writing
June was a time for much cleansing
June was a time for much purging
and June was warm and pretty

In June, Lana walked out a door
and into a summer day
Where there were flowers on the floor
and butterfly games to play

The trees were bare but grass was green
The sky a silver blue
and Lana prayed and laughed and sang
sweet melodies to you

The clouds were gone the sun was bright
The ocean waved and smiled
And Lana knew the time was right
so here she's stayed a while

Colorful shadows appear on her hair
And stars surround her soul
And Lana's dresses are tye dyed dreams
and for once her heart is whole

The space has opened again for her
The path is clear and ready
And truth is what is guiding her
and keeping her foot steady

And Lana will pick you a daisy
and Lana will clean out your mind
And Lana is beautifulcrazy
And Lana is one of a kind

And Lana has laughter like sunshine
And Lana has love like a dove
And Lana is peacefully sublime
And Lana gets Light from Above

And you will read all the stories she shares
as you sign on your computer
and there's no word to rhyme with computer
so just remember this blog

As a picture of a fairytale
something you can dream to
make jewlry and wear bandanas
and listen to what you can dance to

sing in a language you make up yourself
see in your own vivid colors
yin yangs and rainbows and magical wands
open up and let it all in

Climb aboard the TruthTrain
running on Parallel Tracks
going faster and faster
never losing time

Lasting forever in this spiral Love
Circles and kaleidoscope moon beams
shining out the way for you to sense
bringing you past your defenses

into the Forest where Green is Ecstasy
and the chloroPHILLS YOU UP
with LOVE and Magical Passion
music starts the journey!

begin.